[Hideaway]

[smiles are ugly/and we stay disconnected]

I wish I could be unabashed and open when I did things like this. I simply can't bring myself to do it. What is someone sees, you know?

Right. Like it should still even bother me...

Pride is a funny thing. I seem to be sufficiently lacking in any kind of reasonable level of self-esteem, yet I can still recognize that I should have it. I am still offended if people push too hard. If they can see that in me, well... I really have let myself down, haven't I?